What the hell am I doing?

That is one question that we all afraid to ask ourselves, what am I doing?

It is because you don't want to know the answer.

But what is the most terrify is... when u don have an answer for yourself.

That isn't many thing special I have been though in my life so far... I didnot mean to do something really special for the rest of my life... But sometime I will really think... Shouldn't I? 

What am I doing? I am studying... one easy answer! study for what? For a living... Live for what? I stuck...

People asked what I wanna do... I tell them I do what I wanna do... when time change, people change, thought change, value change, then... behavior change!

It is killing me if I do something that I would never by. But it is exactly what I am doing... I am doing advertising, which I never believe in, it is evil that is all I know. I keep lying to myself and keep killing myself.

Humanitarian Lion seems give me some hope, creative mind can do good for the world. While I should know. Idea like that is not going to make a living...

So what am I ganna do? Right now, I will just try to do thing right. I believe there is some way for us to make thing right. Imagine how the world will be when we all do thing for others? The world will be as one.

Tonight I am typing in my bed with air-conditioner. But there are homeless who looking for a place to sleep. Not to mention any other bigger suffering in the war zone.

So where am I going? I don't know, all I know is I got to do something.