Collective Memory

I do very much concern about cultural issues.

Not because of the so called ''Collective Memory'', it is just because I want to keep some identity of the place I love.

I didn't know, and care what the hell collective memory is, I thought that is something far from me, and the only right for old man.

In the central library, there was an audio call at 30, 15 and 5 minutes before the library close. And the voice has recorded and printed in my mind deeply.

Haven't been there for quite a long time, I returned today and found out that...

That the voice has been changed, not anymore the familiar voices, but a stranger.

I miss the voice, because when I was a student, I studied there for whole day, and when the voice comes, just like telling me I had done a great job and it is time to start to rest and eat! I always feel good when I heard that... like really great...

At the study time in library, I spend that time with her, who is so important to me.

And I just miss that period.

Thing changes, just cannot help it... pity...

I guess, something should really need to keep... collective memory is not something just for old man... or I am already the old man...?

How the hell people goes......?

I was wonder how people keep up the spirit of working and climbing up every day.

I got to admit here I am tired after last big project has finish.

And I am tired to go for more, well... maybe a sudden sparkling idea might bring me back.

So please, I want to keep giving surprise and blowing you away.

I don't need a break, I need some insight, some little insight to bring me back to late night work.

BTW, I am really fuck up at my software technically, that really bother me from putting great ideas into execution. I got to work on that so so hard. Come on!

Turn around and walk away

Not only once, these happen in my life for quite a lot of time. Yes, I am saying that girls like to simply turn around and walk away from me. What a shame.

They are my lover, working partners, friends and even strangers. Strange, huh?

Mostly because of my attitude, my tone of speaking, or even my inmate looking face. I tried not to let this happen, but it happens again.

I am a person with grass root level EQ, which has upset me for years. I don't think I am a good leader and deserves to be one. However, looks like the God likes to play a particle joke with me.

Despite all that stupid characteristics about me, I would like to speak a few words to the lady who has 'slapped' on my face today.

You can turn around and walk away in front of me if you don't consider I am the leader and you didn't know what I have been through.

Take my word of it. Don't do that again on the days coming. Because you are dumping all your trust and reliance that you have gained!